Trying Harder vs. Surrendering More

Confession time- I had a pretty real week with God last week. I started reading Lara Casey’s “Make It Happen” book and my life literally changed overnight. That sounds insane and drastic, especially since I started reading the book the week in came out last January and then put it down and didn’t pick it up again until last week. I think my heart needed to be in the right place to hear certain things and really get the most out of it. I had sunk so low the day before I picked up that book for the second time… it was almost as if God was like- “ok, now it’s time”. I have been a christian for a couple of years now, but I still felt unworthy. Like ugh, I forgot to read my bible today or darn, it’s 9pm and I haven’t even prayed or acknowledged God in any way today….I would go to bed so often feeling like I hadn’t been a good christian that day. I need to try harder or DO BETTER. How silly is that? Last week it all became so clear to me…

It's not about trying harder. It's about surrendering more.

In the book “Make It Happen” Lara said she prayed a simple prayer of surrender- “God, please show me the way”. This struck home for me so hard. My prayers had always been about- God, help me do this, or help me make this happen. But something about taking a step back from myself deciding what needed to happen and putting it into God’s hands. It was a powerful moment that had me on knees with tears streaming down my face. He is SO good. I have been living my christian life so differently. I find myself wanting to read the bible, searching for more quiet time to pray, and even memorizing scripture in my car instead of listening to podcasts like I typically do. Not because I am “trying” to be a good christian, but simply because I want to. If you find yourself in that middle of the road christian life, man…I feel you. You are saved and you love God, but you just feel stuck…surrender your life. Give it all to him, ask God to lead you.

photo by: Korie Lynn Photography

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